it has been almost 2 yrs since i last blog.

twitter.... is too short for anything more substantial..

Back to school again.. I wonder what if I didnt insist on going back to school? What will my career prospects be in A?

How will all the relationships turn out?

So many uncertainty. I hate it. I really do.

I like to plan and know what I'll do.. But more often than not, planning fails.

Do I have suicidal thoughts looming in my head? Why do I imagine death so often these days..

I need to swim again.. Swimming drowns all the problems I have..

Should life be this way? This is not what I imagine life is going to be..

Cant wait for exchange.. I wanna get out of SG.. Maybe I just need a holiday to unwind....

wow.

it's almost two months since i've last blog.

finally, SIP started.
it's already the 3rd week.
i wonder how's everybody is doing.. hmmm..
miss lotsa people..

although was darn happy when pei ru is just a few units away from my company.. i've only seen her a couple of times.. kinda disappointed.. was hard to have private talk as well.. everybody wants to find out what everybody is doing.. hmm.. though i understand that everyone is curious about each other's doing.. yet we cant reveal nothing because of some confidential paper we signed.. in case we leak out any info..

well, things were pretty fine so long as you're used to it.. i understand that it's natural for people to want to compete with another..

in my company, we hasn't really been given much responsibility unlike ru's company.. which is much smaller as compared to mine..

but people are friendly.. that's what i like about the environment.. female working environment.. except for da bosses.. all males. hmm.

got to know another intern from Nan Yang Poly... her bdae falls on the same date as me! how coincidental.. and the funny thing is that me and jean, the nyp girl and xue ting has the same horoscopee...! xue ting is dec baby.. almost a yr diff from her..

i dread working.. not that it's not fun.. it's always challenging.. i cant stand working life.. everyday waking up at 630.. rushing to work.. the routine work.. cant stay out late..

as it is.. i'm starting to fall aslp.. and it's only 10+?!
how early..

i miss everyone!

cant wait for sat's class.. =D
get to see everyone agaaainnnn..



yes, people.
i've been busy.
busy dating. hahaha. =)

hope things..
will turn out well!

had a bad night. couldn't sleep well..

can't even tell if i was aslept..

what you said comforts me.. but still.

i believe that there are still other things that's worth happy about...


the biggest me2you bear in that store.. imagine i get hold of it.. but where can i put it?
i believe it's onli good to look at.. but not own it..










yes!! my eyes are bigger than his.. muahahaha.. ;P


after 5 tries!!! maybe he's more interested to take photo withhhhhhhh.................. *grins*







picture says too much.. :)
my last blog entry before i hibernate.. haha..

i didn't expect myself to break down when i read her story..

our stories so similar.

the path she had chose is like a signal.. for me to follow her.


i could have been. but i never try. i've hang on for too long..

54th month? 4.5 years?
does months years say something abt a relationship.

nothing.

once you lost the feelings.. it's gone. forever.

oh wth.


i've spend 3 hours talkin to a guy.

who talked non-stop about his ex gf.

who started to get more and more angry as he talks.

and guess what,

it's non of my BUSINESS.

damn.

it's not MY FAULT that I don't understand certain points.



PLEASE. why cant EVERYBODY have more PATIENT with me.


oh wtf.

i shant think about it anymore.

thank you all for the support!

i'm glad i made it!


:D



thank you too. ^^
i hate the gentleness in you..
whenever you asked me what's wrong.
why so sad.


it's all becuz' of you.

i need someone to talk..

with my bear on my lap now...

i decided that maybe it is better to jus talk to him instead.

arghx.

i wanna share my worries with you.
but you shun me off.

i don't wanna move again.
mom wants to shift house again cuz of neighbour issues.

it's not that i dun wanna listen to her.
but it's very tiring ..
everytime as i'm doin my work, she comes in and say what my neighbour did to her for the day.
seriously, i dunno if everything was her imagination or she being too sensitive and overreact so often.

bukit batok lei. or red hill.
NO WAY..........

but my sis is rather keen on that idea cuz.. all the universities are located in the west or north?
i aint tinkin that far already..

i hate being the oldest.

i hate it when mom was so serious when she ask us to listen to what she has to say. i almost wanted to faint. so worried that she's gonna say.. dad's got retrenched. lucky, it was the idea of shifting. if retrench, then smaller flat. :((

dad say.. company not doing well. oh faint. so i asked dad if uncle (boss) will retrench the other 3 uncles who work for him as well.. he say.. probably.

mom told us that 1 of the uncle told boss that there's 1 employee who has been secretly taking taxi license without his permission.. wah liew. seems scary. as if the retrenchment is.. coming.

mom said that boss left almost immediately after hearing that.. when he was at the hospital for only 10 mins. *%*#%_# him. still, he should acc grandma MORE. everytime show face.. den leave. uncle was drunk. damnit. BIG MOUTH. am sure that employee's gonna get it.

enough said.
lemme faint.
will deal with all these later.

presentations coming~
gd luck...................... hopefully.. freedom's coming as well.



i hate it when you don't wanna listen.